Friday, May 20, 2011 ' 8:47 AMY
ii had a wonderful day on 18th may 2011
the little things we had was such a wonderful time..
ii still would remember uu sleeping by my side..
hugging me to sleep and all ii did was tear
wishing it was not a dream..
wishing tat all this never happen..
i'm sorry but ii just miss those days we had..
the best memories ii had tat day was when we were walking back
uu seem tat uu didnt bother
but uu took out a tissue and wipe it
uu even had to wipe it wif ur clothes..
we joke we laugh we smile..
and ii knew eventually uu had to leave me still
it was just like no other fairy tale..
it was fun..at the beach when ii look at uu while uu play my game
and ii was listening to the music..
you look at me and said okay imma look uu for 5 mins..
ii wish uu did..
ii really wish tat 5 mins was uu looking at me again..
eventually ii knew tat
ii had to do wat's right and ii know
maybe it was all this while
we knew tat everything change..
ii just hope our love will never change and never be apart..
it was a day ii never will forget
the times just like how we used to be..
and still ii knew in the end
who ii am to you..
thank you so much for tat wonderful day.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011 ' 4:39 AMY
I hate it when my family is screwed up..
ii hate it when everything has to be this way..
honestly im sick and tired..
being a human being really sucks..
ii hate having to think
ii hate having to hv feelings
ii had e hurtful and sad feelings..
ii hate being tied
ii hate everything tat is not seen
the little things in life tat they will never see
ii hate e mistakes ii tried to mend they will never see in it
im tired
ii am tired really
this sucks
no matter wat ii am
or who ii am
they just dont see it
just dun understand it
im trying to think and keep reminding myself
they are my parents
its a duty for them to react this way
i know
but why can't the world be simple
ii dont need ppl to comment anything on me
ii dun need anyone to judge me
ii noe everyone makes mistakes
so do ii..but ii never
once ii my life
say ii hate my parents
ii know
at times ii get piss and mad abt it
but at e end of e day
ii noe tat im just mad at them
because ii noe they care
and ii noe
there is this stupid fking work call OVERPROTECTING
and ii FKING HATE TAT FEELING!
its sucks..ii wish ii could just get out e bloody door
ii wish ii can just go to somewhere
and breathe
for one day..
think of nth else
nth at all..all ii just need is
peace and air
my brain is killing me
its sucks..this feeling sucks..i hate it
ii dun want it..and it hurting me..
my brain is gonna burst
and im gonna break down soon
im just trying my best to be strong
haiz..my brain hurts now..
and why am ii tearing..
wat e fk am ii tearing..
haiz sigh..
its so hard to understand the world and how one thinks
cuz they can nv understand ...
life sucks at times..
this is e point of time
my life sucks and im screwed up wif it..
Friday, February 25, 2011 ' 2:18 AMY
Far longer than forever
I'll hold you in my heart..
As constant as the stars,
i'll close my eyes and ii see you in my thoughts..
was ii able to keep those thoughts to myself..
hmm..ii miss those days..
if only ii was able to tell uu this
ii love you tat much
and tat love was once greater than anything ii had..
it's gone now..
Friday, February 18, 2011 ' 9:08 AMY
finally a morning to breathe fresh air..
been busy and staying up in the night..
thanks for being patient with me through e nights..
ii apologize the days ii made uu confused over certain stuff..
ii had lots of fun,jokes and laughter though..
gosh!next week is so gonna be a tough week for me..
sigh..ii need a break..
argh..
Sunday, February 13, 2011 ' 9:28 AMY
it's valentine's day tomorrow..
fuck the day..
why am ii fucking feel sad..
why am ii still tearing here..
why did ii had to be the fucking one tat deserve all this..
uu wanna know how ii feel now..
i'm fucking screw and ii hate to know tat
why the fuck am ii still doing this to myself..
all those things..
those are lies..those are fucking empty promises..
there are only dreams..
why then..why the fuck would you want to promise
or do something when u're walking away..
why love me when uu know uu are tired..
why start when uu end up leaving without explaining..
why make my heart hurts so fucking deep..
WHY WHY WHY!!
WHY THE FUCK AM II STILL THIS WAY..
arghhhhhhhhhh..
tears..
ii got lost deep down,
sigh..
' 9:16 AMY
it's been 2mths u're gone..
ii hate to know that uu are fucking gone..
ii know it's all just me..
i'm e one tat couldn't let you go..
ii hate it..
ii do miss you..
i'm worried still..
but whatever it is
ii ain't gonna be there any more
ii want you to know
it doesn't matter who goes
ii couldn't have love you better..
i'm already gone..
Thursday, February 3, 2011 ' 10:05 AMY
freaking hangover..
damn it..feel like puking..
okay its chinese new year..
and guess wat..ii dun give a damn..
fucking sian..
my brother woke up so late..
feel like cuddling him haha..
awesome brother of mine..
gosh fuck man!
ii only left like 2 more bottles of vodka..
parents got so many cans of beer..
ii can't drink beer ii will puke!
he's back..
feels like shit..dun noe why ii still worry for you..
ii wish ii nv did..
ii just can't stop my mind from loving you..
ii hope you had a great time..
iimissyou..iiwishallthiswasalie..aliethatiiwouldntwanttoknow..
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Livia Teng ;† il3abylivia♥
